We’re all struggling at the moment and for some people it is a lot harder than others to just survive during lockdown. I may not fully acknowledge it every day (as much as I try but I’m a selfish, flawed human) but I am fully aware of how lucky I am right now. I live in a safe home surrounded by my family with plenty of food and we’re all healthy.
Of course, that doesn’t mean that my head doesn’t regularly want to implode with the overwhelming relentlessness that lockdown brings. I miss dates with my boyfriend, I miss seeing my friends in the flesh, I miss going to dance socials and classes and most of all I miss a good old hug! I honestly think I would hug anyone right now because it has been so long. I want to see all of my nearest and dearest and just embrace them for dear life. One of my best friends had a baby at the beginning of the year and every time I see her on Skype I just want to jump through the screen and give her the world’s biggest cuddle. Nevertheless, I am trying to stay as positive as I can because it doesn’t look like life will be normal for a very long time. I practice gratitude everyday without fail, even though sometimes I don’t feel very grateful and I actually feel better just embracing the sadness I’m feeling, but I have been surprised by some of the things that have given me a moment of happiness. For the purposes of length I am not including Skyping with friends because that’s a whole blog post in itself and they OBVIOUSLY bring me so much happiness! 1.Having my meals cooked for me Just before lockdown was announced I moved back in with my parents and my brother as I’m a type 1 diabetic and knew that I’d feel more comfortable relying on them if shit got real. I’d also really miss not being able to see them and they have a desk so I can work from home without injuring myself! I have tried my best not to regress to my more youthful years but my brother has become quite the chef recently and quite often cooks for us. Despite his passion for putting butter and cream in EVERYTHING it is just really lovely having someone cook for me; it feels so homely and is definitely something I look forward to at the end of the day. 2. Putting on freshly washed leggings We’re all in joggers and leggings now, it’s a fact of life. And when they’ve just been washed and you slip them on the level of comfort is just heaven. See also freshly washed bedding for a similar thrill. 3. A mini lie in I’m fortunate enough to be working from home at the moment which means no commuting for the time being and an extra hour in bed! Follow that up with a cuppa made by my dad on his working from home days and it’s not a bad way to start the day. 4. I have a chance to focus on my diabetes For anyone familiar with diabetes it’s a complete mindfuck of a condition that rarely sticks to the rules it sets itself. I have been trying for years to get better control and it’s a daily struggle but lockdown has actually given me a chance to monitor my sugar levels a lot more closely. I’m really hoping that when this over things will be more stable! 5. I’m exercising more Well, I think I am. I’m not someone who hates exercise but I’m quite picky about what I do. I lean more towards dance based workouts rather than burpees, lunges, weights etc. and so I’ve found a really good YouTube channel (The Fitness Marshall) to keep me busy throughout lockdown. I started doing it because I felt I had to do something and then it went from that to ‘well it fills a gap in my day’ to now being something that I look forward to doing as much as possible. This isn’t just for my physical health but as someone who loves dancing it gives me an hour of just doing something fun which can be hard to find right now. I’ve also been trying to keep up with swing dancing/solo jazz which is a big passion of mine so shout out to Cardiff based The Swing Project for the incredible online classes (go check them out!) 6. Being able to format my paperback Like everyone else I have had a lot more time on my hands which means I’ve finally been able to sit down and format my paperback. Turns out it isn’t as scary as I thought and should be finished very soon! 7. So much more cake My mother is a strong advocate for nearly always eating a piece of cake when you have a cup of tea. It’s very rare these days that the kettle goes on without a ‘Do you want anything with this, love?’ and the cupboards are well stocked with a variety of baked goods. I love that woman. N.B Yes, diabetics can eat cake. Never ask a diabetic if they can eat something or they will eat you.
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